Almost a year ago Chicago

Almost a year ago, I went to Milwaukee and Chicago to visit Sheila and Monica. It was a fun trip but turned out not exactly how I would have planned it. Due to circumstances beyond any or all of our control, I was left to my own devices on the Saturday of my trip. I started the day downtown Chicago.
While being alone in a big city at times can really frighten me, it can also be a day of adventures even if I am completely alone. I went to the Barnes and Nobles or Borders, don't know don't care which... and found the travel section. I picked up my pen and paper from my purse - I always have writing accessories on hand that's just me. I decided a few places I would like to go even if I didn't fully attend by paying fees as that can get really expensive and simply not as much fun to ooh and aah alone. My main focus, the Hancock Towers which was across town from my present location.
Off I went to walk there knowing I had technically all day to get there. I spent the day enjoying the buildings, taking time to observe, and window shopping here and there at boutiques. I stopped to eat at a Bistro that I heard some ladies say was voted best Bistro in Chicago. I ended up making it to Chicago by almost dark which was surprising by how few blocks it technically was between my destinations.
The reason I express this in my blog is that I was just thinking about the lesson I learned that day. I was so sad in the beginning of the day when the world seemed to fall apart and I was left, after traveling across the country to see my best friends, alone. I was so alone but I have been other times in my life. Some times it seems being alone is easier to handle and other times being alone seems really hard. I cried in the beginning of my walk then learned to enjoy it and make the best of it but in the end when I felt backed up again, I cried once again almost alienating my only ally in the city.
What did I learn? I wrote this that day. "I have learned a valuable lesson on this trip. I am completely capable and fine on my own. :) I do however enjoy people around more than being just me."
I would rather share my experiences with people but if forced to I am able to handle myself just fine all by myself. I don't need my friends to carry me or buoy me up. I need the Gospel and my Savior by my side.

HAPPY 4TH of JULY

I have to add this also, HAPPY 4th of July!
God Bless America, Land that I Love!
I am so thankful to be living in a country that is free based on our merits! We have fought to defend this land because it is worth defending and it is a beautiful strong place. I am thankful to be living here today!

Follow Up

So I sounded a bit grrr about not being married the other day when I wrote and decided to follow up. The bitter moment only lasted a moment so that's good (except that it comes and goes a lot but often quickly leaves -what can you do).
New thought today from The Five Love Languages of Singles: Love (and he is talking about the language of love used in every human interaction) is [where] requests are more likely to be honored. Responding to a sincere request is also an expression of love. It is doing something for the benefit of the person making the request. Reciprocal love is the fabric of which lasting friendships are made.
Friendships are cultivated and strengthened when we choose to speak each other's primary love language.

Marriage

"The supreme purpose of marriage is the union of a man and woman at the deepest possible level and in all areas of life, which in turn brings the greatest possible sense of fulfillment to the couple and at the same time serves best the purpose of God for their lives." -- Gary Chapman from The Five Love Languages for Singles

Get this - I'm single. Apparently I'm having a moment - sarcastic or sobbish or blah or why... who really knows right now but I'm in the mood to share my thoughts. :)

Here is a thought for ya, I read the books: Getting Serious About Getting Married, The Five Love Languages for Singles..., I go to the firesides and read the talks. Generally, I do pretty well about getting out there and meeting new people so that I'm not hiding in my hole hoping the right guy will just some how miraculously find me, I'm trying to help him. I'm happy, confident, educated,.... and not bad looking dang it.
SO what am I don't wrong and why can't I find my companion? Where is someone that I will love and that will love me in return that will build a relationship with me and then continue to work on it with me to sustain it throughout our lives as we have a family, own a home, have jobs, ..... Why can't any relationship I enter into ever just feel right for both of us - me and him a the same time?
I'm sure everybody has an opinion because everybody has a reason for me:
"oh you will find someone don't worry,"
"You are too hard on these guys, cut them some slack"
"Don't create things, cut him off, you are too willing to put up with things"
(yes you see a problem with the people I talk to already...)
"When you find him it will all just feel so right that's how it was with me and ____" (Oh shut up)

I'm 26 and when a coworker, father, walked by at work he said, "you guys act like being single at 26 is like having the plague or something." Sometimes I feel like I do have the plague. Everybody has a solution for me, advice on what I should do.
Yes, I don't want to continue to repeat the same things over and over because obviously that hasn't been successful in the past yet, sometimes the "oh don't worry you will find someone" gets really REALLY annoying and makes me want to hit you. If you say this to me and I hit you just know that you have been warned :)

Well that's the thought for the moment and yes I hope for comments and of course your advice.

Oh My Goodness I sound so bitter right now- I should work on that...

Just thinking

So I was just looking at my info page. It said I have 2 people who check my blog so for those 2 I am going to write some thoughts. :) Life is good! I had a giggle attack today at work because I started listening to some big band music which I haven't heard in a while and it made me feel silly. Gotta love moments like that eh?
I am trying to decide if I should create a blog for my piano students and parents as an open forum of communication. I can give advice and tips. Parents can help other parents with advice and tips. However, there could be some resisters and I am worried about constructive criticism because certain things should not be public in my opinion. I also wondered how people would post or if they could post without having the e-mail it was created with and password. Otherwise I have to create a just for piano e-mail but can't use it because they could then use it also...
What are your opinions or feedback on this?