Mature enough not to run

Elder Jeffrey R. Holland gave a devotional last Sunday that I really enjoyed! I kind of became burnt out of CES devotionals a few years ago because I went to every single one, attended all my meeting... And they all seemed to tell me the one thing I wanted most in life-- you should get married. Yes I am putting an effort into that. I am but if even your mother agrees with you that the men you have dated in the past were not good matches that you should have made it work or that you are not being too picky then I am pretty sure it just hasn't been the right match. Just food for thought out there. I attend my meetings, serve in my callings, pay my tithing, attend the temple and no match which means to me (and as it states in my Patriarchal Blessing) I will know when I meet him and I haven't known yet...

Wow not the point of this post

The fireside last week was fantastic! He made a comment that the church of God will no longer flee as it has in the past but will be able to stand with heads held strong. His comment was that the church has reached a maturity enough not to run. I enjoyed that thought.
I have thought from time to time about friends who moved to "run away" or flee from experiences and life that was less than pleasant. Sometimes I am not sure that this does not also apply to me as I moved to D.C. I wasn't running specifically from a guy but kind of I was. Trevor really broke my heart and that is okay except I needed to heal me. I could have done it there but I also feel that my Heavenly Father wanted me to expand beyond that space I was in there so He granted me permission and strength to get up and move. Was I having a lack of maturity to face the problems there... maybe. Am I mature enough now to face them again and or am I running back because of a lack of happiness here? I have wanted friends more than anything, I have wanted to date here both of which have seemed to evade me in an odd sort of way.
I think I am largely going back to change again. I am constantly evolving. I am changing. I am a happy optimistic smiley person who has so many gifts and talents that I need to really learn to understand. I think that is my I am moving. I hope so at least and I hope it does not stem from an immaturity to face things here. :)